понедельник, 22 октября 2012 г.

I'm in my second year of law school. I p...

I'm in my second year of law school. I passed from 1st year to the second but it was a surprise, as I completely failed my first year. But since I started studies again this year, it's like all my life depends on whether I work hard or not enough, if I work fast or too slowly.


I'm never in the mood for meeting new people, even if I feel a bit lonely at university because I don't have a lot of friends. I really don't want to make efforts for meeting new people, I feel like my studies are a too big deal with too many difficulties to add this other difficulty in my life.


I really like law but I think I will never get a proper job, because I'm not that kind of people who dare to struggle for their goals. I lack confidence and I feel like when I'll get my law diploma, nothing's going to be right and I'll end up being a housewife, as my boyfriend will certainly get a good job (he's also in law school, but in his 4th year).


Everyday I study, but I can't work all day because at a certain point I just can't concentrate anymore. Then I worry a lot and all I can think in my head is "you're spoiling the chance you had when they let you pass the first year".


I think I just need to have some holidays, as I thought before knowing I was going to second year that this would be a cool year because I would just have to learn things I already know. And this year has more "serious" classes. Well, it's very different and more complicated. I wasn't prepared for that. But I really want to have good marks and go to 3rd year next year. I'm just 18 and I feel I had the chance to be where I am now and now I have to work hard to reach my goals. But it's difficult to work hard. And I feel alone during the day.


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четверг, 18 октября 2012 г.

Life is a marvellous thing. I can not st...

Life is a marvellous thing. I can not stop wonder and admire it. Perhaps that's why I'd like to live forever, there is no limit for saturation of it. But I guess there are some things that can be experienced only by dying. And it's not just a pain. Though yes, it can also be fun and give a sense, feelings of life. I imagine death as something absolute, real, genuine. Something that you can feel through. To perceive entirely.


I was so much afraid that at some time I'd began to fear death. In fine I've found myself. What a pity that... I can not pass this feeling and share it. I love it when I'm here so bursting with feelings of harmony and integrity.


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понедельник, 15 октября 2012 г.

I think I'm a spoiled child. Obviously t...

I think I'm a spoiled child. Obviously there are all the signs of the consequences in adult life. But I do not understand how this happened. I had a very humble childhood.


Nobody had ever done anything special for me, never loaded with gifts, even for my successes. I was early accustomed to keep order, to appreciate the others work and to reckon with others. I have never been inclined to spend money.


And yet, I am capricious. I do not feel boundaries of my desires. I can not stand the fact that I do not have something desirable. I still remain dissatisfied. A kind of forced resignation. And there is always hope that I'll get what I want nonetheless.


I even don't care, whether I deserve it or not. Sometimes I think that people have what they don't deserve, that there is no working law of justice. And sometimes I look at my life and say to myself, "I guess I deserved it. I have what I'm worth."


Probably one of my biggest is that I can not work for what I want to get. There is no motivation to do anything in order to get what I want.


Since people with self-indulgence get what they want just by manipulation, they are not able to build adequate relations with others. Of course, depending on how you look at it, but it reminds me of me...


Perhaps the main symptom of my "spoilness" is that I don't feel the foothold, I doubt all the time, have no any persistent beliefs. I live by the principle of "methinks" and "everything is possible". But, again, I think, it does not work.


And yet how did this happen to me?


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четверг, 11 октября 2012 г.

Out of infinite darkness, in the twin fi...

Out of infinite darkness, in the twin fires of unstoppable life and uncontrollable chance, the universe has forged in me a piercing edge of consciousness. I was quenched in the clear waters of the Ocean, and, still glowing with youthful heat, left to cool wrapped in the rolling green blanket of the Earth. There, along with thousands of my brothers, I learned to channel and direct my energy. We are strong. We are ready. When the time comes, we will rise - and clear a new path for this world.


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To be a good person you need to start th...

To be a good person you need to start thinking less about yourself and paying more attention to people around you. In modern society this balance is shifted towards selfishness way too often.


That's not enough, of course. But it's a good place to start :)


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Just turned on computer. Have watched 11...

Just turned on computer. Have watched 11 episodes of 40 minutes ser. All for today. And not a bit sorry :)


so I thought: here I'll live a long life, look back and think "What do I regret the most of?" I do not want to answer "it's a pity, I was having a boring stuff, did not petmit myself some nice and interesting thing, which I wanted to"


In general, trying to eliminate the guilt :) I know that society considers this act such an irresponsible. even more, this is not the first time :)


I also think that to spend the day as a vegetable in front of TV is not very dignified pastime. BUUUUUUT! It was a conscious choice, so I respect myself further :)


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I really think I want to marry that guy....

I really think I want to marry that guy. He's been obsessing me for years, and now we're finally together, both of us crazy in love, I think this is it and it's awesome. I don't worry anymore, my social life is delicious. He wants to marry me and have children with me in a few years when we'll finish our studies. I'm not even worried about feeling engaged at 20. I don't understand people who say "It's been a while with this guy now and I wanna enjoy my young age". Without him I wouldn't enjoy it at all ! I'm having super fun !


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What I hide most of all is my fear. Bein...

What I hide most of all is my fear. Being such a coward is a shame even for a woman. I've noticed I'm afraid more and more every year. I feel sick just thinking about the rides or the water park but 10 years ago I adored them. I want to learn to drive a car but every time I sit behind the wheel as before the execution. Besides I'm afraid that others think badly about me, even though I know it's stupid. I'm afraid that my life is wasted for nothing at work but don't want to live in poverty, to count every penny in the store, to look for the low-cost housing. I am afraid to seem a loser against my classmates. I am afraid that I will never again feel passion in sex or in my life in general. I don't see the way how to change my life to the best. And it frightens me.


I guess I always wanted to have a protector to be safe with him. A man who will make my life a holiday. Sometimes when I'm upset with something I catch myself on thought that someone haven't met my expectations.


I know that's wrong. I can not think like that. It's necessary to achieve success step by step, to rely on myself first of all. I know. The constant fear holds down and poisons my life. So I avoid people or try to pretend that I'm fine.


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You don't die when your body has run out...

You don't die when your body has run out of steam. You die when your soul has been broken down so much by ignorance and stupidity that you can't carry on.


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Understanding by other people for me is ...

Understanding by other people for me is extremely important, but frankly speaking I never met anyone who can understand me completely. People tend to imagine their own things when they hear others, without paying much heed to what exactly the person they are talking to meant to say.


Actually I started noticing the same thing in myself either. I hear someone's reasoning and start developing my thoughts around it. Only later from time to time I can realize that he or she actually meant something completely different, that all that conversation was a complete misunderstanding.


It's sad that there is practically no way to fix this flaw of modern society...


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My parents are great because they love m...

My parents are great because they love me. They care when something happens in my life. They always do whatever it takes to make me feel better if something went wrong. They are always there for me when I need some assistance.


And I love them as much in return! I pledge to return the favor when they will become older and retire. To care, to make them feel better, to be there when they will need me.


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I want to lose weight, help!!! Hey every...

I want to lose weight, help!!!


Hey everyone, I got fatter after I gave birth to my girl. Already year and a half passed but I am nowhere close to the weight I had before being pregnant. I am 5 feet high and my current weight is about 130 pounds. Before it was about 110, but it'd be better if I were below 100...


Feel myself really fat, can't get into most of my cloths. I don't eat much, but when husband comes from work I join him at dinner.


Please, help me! Share some advice on what to eat to become slim again. I want to return to my old weight in like 2-3 months. Can't live like this any longer, my belly is almost as large as when I was pregnant, so horrible...


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The best way to make a child obedient is...

The best way to make a child obedient is to begin with a codified set of values, and resist deviating from them, and to live by the same standards that you expect the children to follow. They will learn from your example, only if they see that you honestly believe what you are teaching them.


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Cool pictures could have made ViewHue si...

Cool pictures could have made ViewHue significantly more colorful and fun to read. Why don't you give people an opportunity to upload their own images?


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I like to swim with naked clowns.

I like to swim with naked clowns.


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To be a good person you need to start th...

To be a good person you need to start thinking less about yourself and paying more attention to people around you. In modern society this balance is shifted towards selfishness way too often.


That's not enough, of course. But it's a good place to start :)


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вторник, 9 октября 2012 г.

Just turned on computer. Have watched 11...

Just turned on computer. Have watched 11 episodes of 40 minutes ser. All for today. And not a bit sorry :)


so I thought: here I'll live a long life, look back and think "What do I regret the most of?" I do not want to answer "it's a pity, I was having a boring stuff, did not petmit myself some nice and interesting thing, which I wanted to"


In general, trying to eliminate the guilt :) I know that society considers this act such an irresponsible. even more, this is not the first time :)


I also think that to spend the day as a vegetable in front of TV is not very dignified pastime. BUUUUUUT! It was a conscious choice, so I respect myself further :)


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среда, 3 октября 2012 г.

I really think I want to marry that guy....

I really think I want to marry that guy. He's been obsessing me for years, and now we're finally together, both of us crazy in love, I think this is it and it's awesome. I don't worry anymore, my social life is delicious. He wants to marry me and have children with me in a few years when we'll finish our studies. I'm not even worried about feeling engaged at 20. I don't understand people who say "It's been a while with this guy now and I wanna enjoy my young age". Without him I wouldn't enjoy it at all ! I'm having super fun !


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понедельник, 1 октября 2012 г.

What Ihide most of all is my fear. Being...

What I hide most of all is my fear. Being such a coward is a shame even for a woman. I've noticed I'm afraid more and more every year. I feel sick just thinking about the rides or the water park but 10 years ago I adored them. I want to learn to drive a car but every time I sit behind the wheel as before the execution. Besides I'm afraid that others think badly about me, even though I know it's stupid. I'm afraid that my life is wasted for nothing at work but don't want to live in poverty, to count every penny in the store, to look for the low-cost housing. I am afraid to seem a loser against my classmates. I am afraid that I will never again feel passion in sex or in my life in general. I don't see the way how to change my life to the best. And it frightens me.


I guess I always wanted to have a protector to be safe with him. A man who will make my life a holiday. Sometimes when I'm upset with something I catch myself on thought that someone haven't met my expectations.


I know that's wrong. I can not think like that. It's necessary to achieve success step by step, to rely on myself first of all. I know. The constant fear holds down and poisons my life. So I avoid people or try to pretend that I'm fine.


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